Words and people pleasing

So work has been super busy recently for me. me and my dad have been out fitting houses every day (we put on security doors and fly screens and vertical blinds onto new houses). my job is to take care of the fly screens and the vertical blinds... its really not that much and i am always sitting around waiting for dad. so i took it upon me to learn how to do the sliding security doors. and i did that, so now i can help my dad do them. i also took it upon me to learn how to do the venetian blinds. and i did that too. so all i cant do now is the hinged security doors. it gives my dad less work and me more. which is good. yesterday we were at Bremer Waters, a place where we fit... its like a retirement village. and one of the old guys said to me and my dad how i should just supervise and make him do all the work... and my dad said "oh she does that all the time"... i am thinking what the heck... i just learnt this stuff, help him out and he comes back and says that. it hurt, i aint gonna lie. i was so frustrated cuz its like he didnt even acknowledge what i do.

but then i remembered Galatians 1:10- Obviously, I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant.

so i prayed over and over again that i wouldnt be affected by what my dad said and realise that God sees my work and thats what matters. and God affirmed me in that. and we dont need 2 people pleasers working together. yesterday when my dad said, he was trying to look good and impress the guy we were talking to. and he did, by putting me down. so i am not gonna get upset and try to please my dad, cuz that wont happen... well he wont admit when it does cuz then he wont be pleasing others by doing that.

so the moral of the story is.... words are powerful, they can bring people up or bring people down. BUT even when people do bring u down, remember that u r out to please God and not people. so today really think about what you are saying and whether they are words of life or words of death!

Missing Canada

Ok so the past couple of weeks i have been thinking alot about my friends in Canada and missing them heaps. My friends in Canada know me soo well.... even better than most people here and they have seen me at my worst and at my best. That is what makes quality friends in my eyes. People who have a great love for me even when i am at my worst. So i have been missing them heaps. missing the hugs, the laughs, and just the time we always got to spend in each others presence. not just my session, but my 614 community, my New West community, my Cariboo community etc. so to all my friends, i cant wait to come over and see u... i love you all soooooooo much. big hugs!!!!

One other thing i have been missing about Canada is the war college in general. now i dont think i would ever go through war college again, it was super intense, but i miss the God times. My life has really picked up in Australia now and i am super busy. not as busy as i was in Canada, but i am pretty busy. the difference between my busyness in Canada and my busyness here is how much time i spend with God. in Canada, we were constantly chucked into classes to be with God, in the War Room to be with God, in situations on the street to pray to God. here in Aust, i dont get that opportunity. i have to make time and its hard. so i am really struggling with that.


On another topic, i went to my 1st funeral last week. it was a beautiful service to say goodbye to an amazing man of God from our church. Made me think of my friend Denneil and how it sucked that i didnt get to her funeral. i really miss her. God also spoke to me about life. life is short and if you arent a Christian, then you arent going to heaven. its a scary reality and it makes me realise we need to shine the light of God as if our life depended on it. cuz someone else's life depends on it.

And i am not at a stage where i am ok with death. i wanna live and achieve so much more, but i need to have more trust in God that when its my time, its my time. its not something i can control, so i just need to trust God more.

Busyness is lame!

So a really random thing happened to me tonight..... I was driving from my house, to my friends house where i am house sitting and i just burst into tears.... i had been feeling a bit flat all day (not that anyone knew that! sorry i didnt tell u andrew). i was struggling. I had a feeling its cuz i havent had any considerable amount of time with God all week. i have been sooooo busy at work, that i would get out of bed, get dressed and walk out the door, work my day, come home and just crash. i have just been so exhausted. still i shouldnt be making excuses on the account of Matthew 6:33.... which i havent lived by this week.



it wasnt only that. i thought about 2 girls that came to youth last night.... They used to come when i was there before i went to Canada. absolutely beautiful girls... they are MY girls. they have slipped more down the road of destruction in the last year. and my heart just broke for them. and i want to be there for them and try to get them on the right path. But God clearly said to me that i cant be as effective in ministry if i am not spending time with him. and i agree. totally agree. i was thinking how i struggle so much with discipline... but my heart is breaking so much for these girls, i want to be as effective as possible. so i am gonna try to keep my discipline up of devos with my beautiful girls in mind.... you guys can pray for them too!!!!