Decisions, decisions, decisions

So now that i am back in Brisbane and pretty much settling in nicely, its time to make decisions. i HATE making decisions. But i hate people making decisions for me, so the only person left to make them is me!!

I have a decision to make that if i go the way i believe is right, wont make my parents happy... dont worry, i am not moving away or anything. but just please pray for clarity for me and that no matter what, i am following God's will.

oh and my luggage did turn up!

Back home in the land of Oz

well i am back... feels so surreal and weird all at the same time. i have already caught up with a few of my favourite people here, sooo many more to go. its great to be home though.

the flight home was good.... my luggage is somewhere... hmmm.... got left in LA, sad times! but i had some clothes back here and i packed a few pieces of clothing in my bags that made it. so i am good for a couple of days.

The Lord spoke a bunch to me on the flight from Vancouver to LA... i was crying cuz Becky wrote me a letter and made me miss everyone and made me super sad i was leaving. but then i was reminded of how much is awaiting me back in Brisbane and how God has already been opening doors for me. and i was also reminded of the scripture in Luke 9:

Now it happened as they journeyed on the road, that someone said to Him, “Lord, I will follow You wherever You go.” And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head.” Then He said to another, “Follow Me.” But he said, “Lord, let me first go and bury my father.” Jesus said to him, “Let the dead bury their own dead, but you go and preach the kingdom of God.” And another also said, “Lord, I will follow You, but let me first go and bid them farewell who are at my house.” But Jesus said to him, “No one, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.”

The bit that sticks out to me the most is the stuff in yellow.... the War College chapter of my life has officially closed. I cant keep looking back and longing for those times. Michael Collins touched on this in our faculty address time. But i know certain things at home are gonna be tough, but i need to not look back. i wanna take the lessons from War College, apply them and move on. move into the stuff God has for me here. So you guys can pray for me if you like!!! that would be helpful to me.

thats all for now... keep reading my blog cuz i will continue to blog.

Grad pics

SOOOO WE GRADUATED!!!!!! I HAVE TO SAY, I LOOK PRETTY FREAKIN BEAUTIFUL ON GRAD DAY... BUT JUST TO PROVE IT, HERE ARE PHOTOS!!!!!!

Intercession is tough

sooo the title is pretty self explanitory what this is going to be on. You know basically all year, i have been told i have this gift of intercession, where i can pick up on things around me and i denied it for a long time. and its only been in the last 6 months that i have decided i do have it and i will embrace it as a good gift from God. but it is tough, IT IS REALLY TOUGH. if you have this gift, you would understand how tough it is. and i am a real beginner at all this stuff, so i get sooo confused sometimes about what i am feeling cuz i dont know whether its me or whether its someone else. thats where discernment comes in, but then when i pray about the stuff that i am feeling, i doubt whether i am hearing from the Lord and not just making up what i want to hear or whatever. so this is a struggle that i have been going through. and this week i have just been super confused about how i feel.

But God is gracious and i believe he speaks to me, so i am believing in faith that everything i am feeling is not me, but other people as well. cuz thats what he has told me.... so i guess you guys could pray for me and pray for more clarity on how i am feeling.

i dont know why i wrote this blog.... guess to ask you guys to pray for me. oh and i go home in 9 days. thats exciting. and we graduate next week. thats also exciting. that is all for now... if you have any advice on intercession, please let me know!!!!

The tongue

The past 2 weeks have been a reflection time on the past year. with graduation only 9 days away, we are getting extremely close to the end of war college. and i am relieved. War College has been amazing for me, but i am ready to go home. part of this reflection has been realising how much i have changed this year. and people back home would know that i always had a problem keeping my mouth shut. speaking before i think alot and stuff. but this year i have realised how POWERFUL my words are. they can either build up or bring down, when God calls me to give a word of correction, i need to do it etc. i have always had a problem with being a negative person. and God has been showing me the power that is in my tongue and what i say.

so the past 2 or 3 weeks, i have intentionally been trying to be less negative, more positive and speaking words of life. and i dont know whether I realise it more now, but there is so much negativity out there. people complaining about alot of different things all the time and to be honest it ticks me off sooooo much. it annoys me. and its helping me to realise how annoying it must be for others when i whinge about something or complain about something. there are worse things in the world than sooo much of what we complain about. we have a roof over our head, we have food, we are BLESSED!!!!

God calls us to be like Jesus.... while Jesus was getting brutally beaten, he wasnt complaining, yet we complain if we have to wake up an hour early or if we have to do something we dont want to do. while they were hammering those nails into his hands, he wasnt complaining. i am still working at not complaining, but I really think we ought to watch our words so that we arent complaining.

James 3 makes it extremely clear about our tongue and what should be coming out of our mouths. I encourage everyone to read it and the next time you want to complain about the bus being late, how about you think about the people in the world that are starving or something.

I AM BACCCCKKKKKKK!!!!

so i havent updated the whole time i was in OOB.... it was a bad idea, cuz i could go on and on and on about how blessed i was in OOB and the amazing things that happened and all that stuff, but i am not going to.



everyone was a huge blessing to me. i got to hang out with the greatest people ever! so i thought i would encourage them all on here... hmm lets start with.....

Denise (my roommate)- I was sooo excited to see you! soooo excited. i had a great time with you and wouldnt of wanted to be there without u!!! you mean alot to me and i can see growth in you since i last saw u!!!! you are beautiful!


Kirsten (my roommate)- it was fun sharing a room with u.... a little... umm... interesting at times, but it was sooo cool to just hang out with you in the room. you really inspired me on the 1st night doing spiritual readings cuz you were so bold in the prophetic and you really heard from God. also encouraging to see u minister in French. even though u were nervous, u did really good.

Dan (my leader)- I really had alot of fun getting to know you better. you leadership was amazing and you always knew just how to encourage someone. you always looked for ways to bring unity to the team and looked for ways to bring people up. i appreciate your leadership alot!

Tara (my leader)- You always have that great balance between being an amazing leader and being mature, to just being silly. i appreciated soooo much the fact that you gave out so much grace to us, especially if we needed to sleep in and stuff. The day you guys prayed over me, the word you gave me was really really encouraging and i appreciated it sooo much. thanks!

Olivia (my nextdoor neighbour)- You inspired me alot this week. Just taking all those prayer room shifts at 6 in the morning was amazing. and you never complained about it. you always bought alot of energy to the group and it was fun to have someone that was my age... you are soooo beautiful, dont ever forget it!!!!

Xander (my fellow Australian)- You are a warrior.... your passion is just sooo evident and it rubs off on everyone else... as well as that, your laugh is soooooooooooooooo funny!!!! always made me laugh alot!!!!!

Steph (my fellow intercessor)- It was really cool to be able to tell you how i was feeling and at times, you would make me tell u... but it was good to have someone there who at times, were feeling what i was feeling. you are a good friend who i value alot!!!

Talitha (my singer friend)- can i just say you and Acacia are amazing singers... sooooo good. i really enjoyed watching you guys. it was soooo fun to hang out with you on the last night and just tell you a bit of my life and hear about yours.... it was awesome!!! i appreciate the friendship that we made!

Acacia (my other singer friend)- you are soooooo humble. you really do sound amazing and i am not lying. you had perseverence this week and that was inspiring. even though you had like no voice, you kept going. i love you heaps and heaps and heaps!!!!!!


thanks for being soooo amazing everyone!!!!!!

on a cool note, Janet Munn, amazing amazing woman. if you have met her, you would know. she adopted me as her spiritual daughter!!!! so thats really cool. she is awesome!