Netball

Never in my 10 yrs of playing netball have i almost gotten into a fight on the court!!! it was intense!!!

it was the 2nd quarter of our game which just happened to be the last that night as we were playing half a game against 1 team and half a game against another. i was GS and the GK was my player. now for all my Canadian/ American friends, netball is NON contact. u cant lean on or push your players.

this GK was leaning on me, so i gave her a bit of a nudge. she nudged me back which is all fine, cuz it happens... sometimes u get a little pushy with your player. but while i was taking a shot where she had to stand next to me out of play for doing the wrong thing, she nudged me. enough so the umpire wouldnt see and enough to try to make me miss the shot. now that is low. i turned around and said "now that is just bad sportsmanship" and do you know what she did. she pushed me and said "well i am sick of your **** (thats a swear word)" it would have been a fight but i just ignored it and ignored her.

afterwards we went to talk to the umpires about it and this umpire who i know and who doesnt like me turns and says " if you were down my end of the court Lisa i would have given u a warning for swearing." i said "excuse me, i dont swear"

she said " i heard it come from your mouth" and i said "well i dont swear" she didnt believe me.

the almost fight was bad, but she took a blow to my character. that is a massive one. for those who know me, i cant stand swearing nor do i think its right to swear. i have integrity when it comes to that, so it was a massive blow! it sucked so much. i have learnt that assumptions arent always right.... in fact, they are rarely right, so you shouldnt assume at all. word of advice for people DONT ASSUME!!!!!!

needless to say, it was an interesting night of netball!!!!

LIFE.....

IS BUSY AND I AM TIRED.... WAY TOO TIRED TO BE OF MUCH USE TO PEOPLE RIGHT NOW.... THAT IS MY LIFE. OH AND I REALLY MISS MY CANADA FRIENDS. ESPECIALLY DENISE AND BECKY....

THAT IS ALL.

Words and people pleasing

So work has been super busy recently for me. me and my dad have been out fitting houses every day (we put on security doors and fly screens and vertical blinds onto new houses). my job is to take care of the fly screens and the vertical blinds... its really not that much and i am always sitting around waiting for dad. so i took it upon me to learn how to do the sliding security doors. and i did that, so now i can help my dad do them. i also took it upon me to learn how to do the venetian blinds. and i did that too. so all i cant do now is the hinged security doors. it gives my dad less work and me more. which is good. yesterday we were at Bremer Waters, a place where we fit... its like a retirement village. and one of the old guys said to me and my dad how i should just supervise and make him do all the work... and my dad said "oh she does that all the time"... i am thinking what the heck... i just learnt this stuff, help him out and he comes back and says that. it hurt, i aint gonna lie. i was so frustrated cuz its like he didnt even acknowledge what i do.

but then i remembered Galatians 1:10- Obviously, I’m not trying to win the approval of people, but of God. If pleasing people were my goal, I would not be Christ’s servant.

so i prayed over and over again that i wouldnt be affected by what my dad said and realise that God sees my work and thats what matters. and God affirmed me in that. and we dont need 2 people pleasers working together. yesterday when my dad said, he was trying to look good and impress the guy we were talking to. and he did, by putting me down. so i am not gonna get upset and try to please my dad, cuz that wont happen... well he wont admit when it does cuz then he wont be pleasing others by doing that.

so the moral of the story is.... words are powerful, they can bring people up or bring people down. BUT even when people do bring u down, remember that u r out to please God and not people. so today really think about what you are saying and whether they are words of life or words of death!

Missing Canada

Ok so the past couple of weeks i have been thinking alot about my friends in Canada and missing them heaps. My friends in Canada know me soo well.... even better than most people here and they have seen me at my worst and at my best. That is what makes quality friends in my eyes. People who have a great love for me even when i am at my worst. So i have been missing them heaps. missing the hugs, the laughs, and just the time we always got to spend in each others presence. not just my session, but my 614 community, my New West community, my Cariboo community etc. so to all my friends, i cant wait to come over and see u... i love you all soooooooo much. big hugs!!!!

One other thing i have been missing about Canada is the war college in general. now i dont think i would ever go through war college again, it was super intense, but i miss the God times. My life has really picked up in Australia now and i am super busy. not as busy as i was in Canada, but i am pretty busy. the difference between my busyness in Canada and my busyness here is how much time i spend with God. in Canada, we were constantly chucked into classes to be with God, in the War Room to be with God, in situations on the street to pray to God. here in Aust, i dont get that opportunity. i have to make time and its hard. so i am really struggling with that.


On another topic, i went to my 1st funeral last week. it was a beautiful service to say goodbye to an amazing man of God from our church. Made me think of my friend Denneil and how it sucked that i didnt get to her funeral. i really miss her. God also spoke to me about life. life is short and if you arent a Christian, then you arent going to heaven. its a scary reality and it makes me realise we need to shine the light of God as if our life depended on it. cuz someone else's life depends on it.

And i am not at a stage where i am ok with death. i wanna live and achieve so much more, but i need to have more trust in God that when its my time, its my time. its not something i can control, so i just need to trust God more.

Busyness is lame!

So a really random thing happened to me tonight..... I was driving from my house, to my friends house where i am house sitting and i just burst into tears.... i had been feeling a bit flat all day (not that anyone knew that! sorry i didnt tell u andrew). i was struggling. I had a feeling its cuz i havent had any considerable amount of time with God all week. i have been sooooo busy at work, that i would get out of bed, get dressed and walk out the door, work my day, come home and just crash. i have just been so exhausted. still i shouldnt be making excuses on the account of Matthew 6:33.... which i havent lived by this week.



it wasnt only that. i thought about 2 girls that came to youth last night.... They used to come when i was there before i went to Canada. absolutely beautiful girls... they are MY girls. they have slipped more down the road of destruction in the last year. and my heart just broke for them. and i want to be there for them and try to get them on the right path. But God clearly said to me that i cant be as effective in ministry if i am not spending time with him. and i agree. totally agree. i was thinking how i struggle so much with discipline... but my heart is breaking so much for these girls, i want to be as effective as possible. so i am gonna try to keep my discipline up of devos with my beautiful girls in mind.... you guys can pray for them too!!!!

Satan is an idiot and i am so sick of his deception!

so being back is really great. i am still learning a bunch and God is speaking, its great! but Satan is always there to try to mess things up. and as usual, i have had a run in with him again and broken a lie off that he was telling me... what is the lie you ask?

well ever since i got back, i have been really conscience of how people see me. and Satan being the idiot he is has fed me this lie that people still look at me the same as when i left for the War College. and i dont want to be seen like that. i feel like i am constantly in another person's shadow and arent valued as highly as this person. so its been hard. but needless to say, that was all a load of crap and God showed me that today, which was awesome. and if people do see me like that, then they are gonna be really surprised when i rise up above who they think i am and thats their issue to deal with, not mine. my issue is to realise that i am valuable and people see me as valuable. and God showed me that people see me as a young woman now, through someone just saying to someone else today "she isnt a girl, she is a lovely young woman".

My good friend Denise told me this week that the way i am going to use my gifts effectively for the church body is to just be confident with them and dont be afraid to use them when u need to. that was a helpful word, cuz my gifts are kinda hard sometimes. and today in church, i got 2 words. 1 for someone and 1 for another person. these people have poured into my life, but today God called me to pour into theirs. its kinda scary but i obeyed cuz God called me. and i got blessed and they got blessed.

needless to say, church was amazing this morning!!!!!

Jesus, Let me sit at your feet

I have had such a rough week this week. alot of things have factored into why i have and some of them i can control and some of them i cant. i can control how i react and act though. Today has been a good day, but the rest of the week has been a struggle. and thats especially in the devotions area. have been having trouble doing them. tonight i decided no matter what, i was gonna do it.... and this song came on the CD i was playing and its a beautiful, simple song. and what makes it better, is its a song my extremely good friend wrote and sang. its where i am right now... these are the words....

Jesus, Let me sit at your feet
Jesus, Let me sit at your feet

Let me wash your holy, precious feet
With my broken anguish tears
Let me come to you with all my pain
And simply offer you my life again.

Jesus, Let me sit at your feet.
Jesus, Let me sit at your feet.

absolutely beautiful song.... tonight i danced, i wrote a psalm, i cried and i drew a picture totally around this song. this is where i am at. i want to sit at Jesus' feet, but there are obstacles. busyness, laziness, exhaustion, confusion, the list goes on. but i want to, i REALLY want to. so i made myself tonight. i didnt pick up the word, cuz i needed to focus on Jesus for awhile without feeling the need to read. so i just sat and enjoyed Jesus. he is so great. i cant believe i let things of this world, stupid things come in and distract me.

and thank you to the person that wrote this beautiful song.... straight from the heart and definitely a song sent from God. I love you!